Will I ever work a job where I can afford a VACATION?

I am too scatterbrained to actually write what I thought I could write. Bah, I just got asked to move to a different Starbucks, and my first thought is... what, I'm not good enough for this store? I am so insulted, and annoyed and disappointed in myself right now, and there has been just too much emotion going on in this little head that I am heading toward the path of just numb! I am not the typical emotional girl that can handle all the ups and downs all of the time. It takes a lot to get me angry, it takes a lot to get me sad; and sure there are plenty of particular things that strike a chord in emotion for me, but man... I don't know how all of the overly emotional people can handle this crap all of the time! I am tired. I just want something happy that is a constant in my life... just one thing would be good, whether it be a job that's not so insane, a class that is fun, or especially a home life that isn't so chaotic. I don't have anything REGULAR in my life. With a schedule that is ever changing, I don't have any particular friends that I see on a regular basis, I don't hang out anywhere or do ANYTHING on a regular basis. I like change, and I like variety, but if I had one thing that I could just COUNT on it would make everything else just seem less trying, but I feel like almost every aspect in my life is in disarray with erratic chaos swimming all about. Come on magical vacation hours that pop out of nowhere... where are you? I will post something a little less hectic and a little more logical later. Ciao.